i think i really dont learn from lessons.
why must i suggest gathering since no one bothers?
m i trying too hard?
just stay at home and wait for calls to go out?
isn't that a better way of living?
maybe i shld really just get use to eating alone, watching movie alone, do everything alone.
That shld solve all problems and till then, when I'm dead no one will know.
How interesting that will be...
Things said are already set then dont change things.
It is breaking promise and is not ethical!
Argh!

Nevermind me, I'm just grumbling. I guess i got my retribution.
Let start the depression....
Screaming away: Mama, we all go to HELL! It's really nothing except for the smell. So Mama, WE ALL GO TO HELL!

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But sometimes you can't ask for more.
Life is just as simple as being together and chat with everyone.
It may be difficult to be the host coordinating food, activities, people.
But as long as at the end of the day, everyone enjoy the gathering.
What more can you ask for?

Screaming away: Give them blood, blood. Gallons of that stuff!
Give that all the stuff so they can never drink enough~