Year end and beginning of year is the festives time of the year.
Everyone is busy with buying presents, dating friends or partners and enjoying the busy schedules.
I have a friend who hate this time of the year.
But I used to not be bothered bout such feelings.
But recently I don't know what has gotten to me.
What is so wrong with me?
Why can't my life and my thoughts be as simple as eating and shitting?
But it seems like the more simple I hope it should be, the more complicated it is.
I was so fucking depressed on Christmas Day.
I was slightly depress on New Year's Day.
I was troubled on Valentine's Day.
I am so tired on Chinese New Year Days.

Maybe because I'm feeling weird since December so I decided to bury myself in work and nothing else but work. So I'm so tired. I'm really tired. Sometimes, I'll just break down and cry. But since tears have run dry, having horror dreams is the way anger is vented.

I need a holiday. But where can I go? Places that allow relaxation will cause my brain to keep thinking. Places that is busy will cause my problems to be mission impossible. How? How? How? How? I'm helpless! I need some hints to those problems. Where are the hints? How to find the hints?

I'm starting to hate festivals.
Maybe I'm influenced by my friend.
Maybe it's really my own uncontrollable mind.
But I'm starting to hate festivals.